Stripping away the rose colored glasses of denial concerning my reality. Getting in touch with truth. Reaching out to others in empathy concerning their reality and their walk to truth.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


I've been drawing for a long time. Every subject, every face, any place, and plain old space whenever I get the chance, Until within the last six months or so, I've hadn't had the head together to do it. I have Fibromyalgia; when the fog rolls in, my brain rolls out.

Hopefully I salvaged my drawings the other day when my computer took a big hit from a virus. The
computer is sitting on the floor waiting for me to get back to run diagnostics again. I am going to give this my best shot.

On this "newer" computer, hand me down I have completed two drawings just for fun. It seems to distract me from "obssessing over my losses of the other hard drive. Like a kid, I want to kick, scream and rant about it, but it doesn't help. Taking action to try and solve the problems gives me a great feeling that I'm doing something I need for me.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Kick some leaves

A friend and I were hanging out the other day. She asked, “how is it that some trees loose their leaves while others are covered for almost all winter?’”

I think I gave some scientific answer like: “hmm, maybe they’re just different trees.”

We had a good laugh while continuing our journey around the smallish neighborhood we haunt; only now we were tree watching. A nice crisp chill was in the air and each bound in and out of the vehicle brought an icy feel to our cheeks.

Those leaves lay there tempting us. The wind would send top layers scurrying as bottom layers remained in place from a shower the day before. They crunched beneath our feet and the release of a nutty flavor with each crunch arose to our noses.

Sometimes life is that simple. I see something today that I did not notice yesterday! Like trees that are beautiful in the fall, whose leaves do not drop at all. Maybe we’ll go kick some leaves.

Still Looking...

Trying to find something I can afford and still exist otherwise is proving to be tough.
This little charmer was recommended as "the best buy of the sea", and "best by the sea." But I'm thinking: "it's not the best for me."

Oh I love to hear the roar of the ocean and watch those walls of waves come crashing through to the shore...? I'm exillarated by glancing out a second story window watching sharks at play? I'm moved to tears as scores of playful dolphins race around the base of the framing?

My concern is: does it have a stove that works? No stove? Still looking.