Some days I feel no more mature than this photo of a family member. I feel small, unprotected and indecisive. Recent events and helpful friends have helped me see that I need to take action. I need to get things moving in the right direction to have a better life. Yes, and even get down in the dirt when need be. Walk toward the dreams I can create in reality, one at a time.
I’ve written previously, that as a child I was very much alone; maybe too much so, as there was so little or no interaction with possible friends. I still fear having friends. It is a big responsibility to do the right thing for myself and others. It takes me time to realize my mistakes with friends and then I work very hard to correct my previous action or inaction. Such is that case for me lately.
My head is so cluttered that I often misconstrue what’s really being explained. I’ve taken to writing down notes to remind me of what is the best plan for my life. The hard part is: sometimes I have to retreat in order to move ahead. Sometimes I need “me time” to stop and look at where I’m at. The present is where I need to be… not jumping back and forth between past and future.
Then sometimes I have to let go of a friends to make sure I have their best interest at heart. I need to put judgments aside and let people live the way they chose. I need to realize that they are human like me, trying to survive and lead a happy life. That means making a conscious decision, on my part, and taking action; the adult thing to do. ~Dixie
DIXIE,YOUR JOURNEY WILL HAVE SETBACKS[BUT ,YOU HAVE RECOGNIEDTHIS]IT IS A BRAVE MOVE YOU ARE MAKING,I AM WITH EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.I TOO KNOW THAT PEOPLE DO HAVE TO BE LEFT TO LIVE THEIR OWN LIVES.YOU MAKE YOUR OWN CHOICES[SOUNDS EASY,WE BOTH KNOW IT TAKES TIME]YOUR COURAGE IS AN INSPIRATION TO US ALL ,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY THOUGHTS,PEACE BE IN YOUR HEART .DAVE .S
ReplyDeleteDear Dixie,
ReplyDeleteAction in a positive direction can be most baffling. When we see so many options, possibilities, alternatives; the result can be an ongoing circle of indecision.
Writing down your priorities and focusing on a definite plan is within your grasp. Be brave and seize this chance to finally move on to the better life you so richly deserve.
Dixie, you know I have and will continue to be here for you as much or as little as you wish. You have empathetic support from kind, decent folks such as 'Dave. S.'. This should be encouraging as you discover a positive confidence.
In life, as you know I can well relate too, we have to distance ourselves from friends, who we may be causing undue stress because of our own issues. In my case, the interaction and the empathy we have shared, has been a tonic for me. You know I cheer you on, no matter what you decide to do.
Use your 'me time' to your benefit. Be brave and take that action.
With sincere, warm wishes, Gary
It is always difficult to do the right thing.
ReplyDeleteBut it is required to stand tall in your own eyes.
Dear Dave.S,
ReplyDeleteThat was one powerful comment.
Peace, from my heart to yours.
Dixie
Dear Gary,
ReplyDeleteI’d rather be a tonic than catatonic. So I take your suggestions, to heart and head, seeking the positive. I do trust your knowledge and intuition on such things, and realise my journey has only just begun. Plans need to be refined, strength needs to accumulate, and empathy is always greatly appreciated.
My new perspective is to let go of desires and meet my needs. (A blogsite I read deals with this and it gives me great peace.) Not to banish dreams, but to have them enhanced by what is basically and realistically needed, and not defined by my continuous lack of satisfaction.
You and Dave .S are my friends. I love my friends, but I must love them enough to stop overshadowing their privacy; stop interjecting my own issues; stop expecting them to fix me.
Thank you for your confidence in me.
Warmest regards to you.
Dixie
Dear Desperado,
ReplyDeleteI would like to mention your blog that deals with "needs vs desires." Having read it some eight times now, I've begun what may be considered "understanding".
You've helped me to stand tall today. Peace to you,
Dixie
May you be blessed with peace, Dixie, in overflowing abundance. Know that you are not alone, and don't fear reaching out to others. (Easier said than done, right?) Well, at least try to stay strong, and let that spirit heal!(smile)
ReplyDeleteI feel your sadness and realize your pain, but I also have seen your amazing talents displayed on your blog. Use those talents to help you overcome your inner struggles. Perhaps, your artistry is the key to your success!(smile)
I'll be thinking of you...
Take good care of yourself,
Mattie
Hi Mattie,
ReplyDeleteI'm sure, now, there must be something about the artistry I do, that keeps me grounded. I thank you for mentioning that within the last couple of weeks. Even doodling does something for my brain; not sure what.
You are so kind to leave me a commment about this post. I wasn't sure if it would even make sense. "Better out than in." However, that said, your blessing is felt. I am grateful to you.
Kindness and peace returned,
Dixie