Stripping away the rose colored glasses of denial concerning my reality. Getting in touch with truth. Reaching out to others in empathy concerning their reality and their walk to truth.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Gifts


For Christmas?

I would love to have some shoes but I really want a hat.
And~ a doll with red-blond hair but my brother wants a bat.

So if I can have the shoes and a single pair of socks,
give the bat to my brother 'cause to him, this means a lot.

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Dedicated to The Thompson Children's Orphanage,
Charlotte, NC

Monday, December 5, 2011

Collating




Santa and Jesus come each year.
I always have to cheer.
The big guy's fat; the baby's dear.
Love for the little one, Santa's feared.

Santa's what I fear, he might withhold my toys.
Shhh, the babe is making noise.
The star on high is poised.
But I hear Santa's voice.

Our chimney is nice and clean
as Santa makes the scene.
While Herald angels sing,
To announce the new born king.

My confusion has me blind
To the life that could be mine
If not for Christmas time
I'd hear the church bells chime.

But who can let him go?
That man that lives in snow.
The “good and bad” he knows,
Trumps the swaddling clothes?

At the age of nine I see,
That Santa's “make-believe”.
I feel the need to grieve,
A story that deceives.

I search for answers all around,
As Santa's sleigh dives to the ground.
The babe grows up and love abounds.
He looked for me 'til I was found.





~dcrelief~ December 2011

Saturday, December 3, 2011

in starry realm

In the middle of the night... a small babe myself... hugged the window sill to view 'the star'. So there was a birth to remember and now a star to help me remember it. Well, I wanted my own star! Why was this the only babe with a star? ~And why did it seem to appear every year over my home? Still, it was so beautiful; it just had to mean something more than reminding us of a birth.

As a child, I noticed storm clouds that hid the viewing of the star. Where did it go? It's great brightness decided to shine elsewhere? I grew and realized the wise magi followed this same star for two years. Guess they never had storm clouds. The babe was two years old, living in a house with his parents, when the magi arrived with gifts and worship. I knew nothing of worship but gifts were something else.

Hmmm, get a star, get a gift? Wait! Every year that I watched for this star I had a gift, waiting for me, the next morning. I didn't understand but I was aging faster than the babe, so I had more time, I think...
Then again, the reasoning power of a four year is perfect but flawed.

Friday, December 2, 2011

more than a feeling ~

A flood of thoughts and feelings, for this season, the painting brought to me. The dynamics of the layout with the moonlit sky came forward as the first thing I noticed; then came the tree. But, oh, how the tiny streets had me backtrack to the small church with stained glass windows. The ancient angels and other divine beings might be singing in the sky, while in that church people smiled, and swayed to the tune of “Silent Night.” It's pure joy to come this far in my life and realize the things I cherished as a young child abound more so, now, than then. More than a feeling, it's an inner thing, a spirit of love, truth, guidance, that I have experienced over many times.

As a child I grew up with the babe in the manger. Every year He was continually placed in the manger; though I wondered, when would He grow up? There came a time I lost interest in the day and considered all lost and bothersome. The commercial governing of His life kept Him small. Yet somewhere within, an inner thing, a spirit of love, truth, guidance, I felt brought back. The innocence of a child, a babe, living to eventually die for me, was an astonishing revelation. I needed a God experience to instill the belief that held my heart.

I've had so many God experiences. Many times, many miracles... many moments of proof to last me a lifetime. I experienced faith and each time, presented has been more remarkable; more than a feeling.

I cling to the message: “In this life you shall have trials and tribulations, but be of good cheer, for I have overcome the world.”

I'll write more soon! Thank you, and Good Christmas.

Credit: “Christmas Land” ~ Jessie Barnes, 1989 (free share photo site).